Praise God it showed a healthy, active, upside down arm waving little baby! I’m just over the moon, it still doesn’t seem real and I don’t think it will until I can feel it kicking and even then maybe not until it’s born!
It’s day one of healthy eating kick! Did pretty well today, and Reuben and I walked to and from yoga in the blazing sun so that was gorgeous.
Breakfast – Mango Protein Shake
Lunch – Goats cheese/lentil salad (lacking protein here and I’m not a fan of lentils but we had take out in the park )
Dinner – Chicken thigh casserole with spinach and brocolli
Snacks – frozen mango
Post dinner – Greek yogurt and Cherries.
Ok still a bit too much food and sugary mango snacks but overall improvement
In other news, my 12 week scan is tomorrow, if you are a praying person please pray for me that the baby is ok and healthy! Thank you, I really appreciate it. I’m so nervous… I know what will be will be – but I hope to be back here tomorrow after 1pm posting happy news. Hubby has a half day from home so he can come with me so that will be nice, although we aren’t allowed to take Reuben (wtf?) so he will be staying behind with our neighbours.
Touch wood I’m still pregnant! Our scan is in two days (one more sleep when I wake up.. I’m typing in bed) and I’ve never been so keen to fast forward a couple of days of my life. In the mean time, I’m trying to do some damage control. When we conceived this time I was about 7kgs (15lb, over a stone) over my “normal” ideal day to day weight. Obviously this is due to nothing more than overeating but I like to put it down to the deep dark place I found myself in after each baby loss. Each time I would eat like crazy in secret and then after a couple of weeks and I was in a better place I’d start back at the gym again and try and work it off. Didn’t really work. Not to mention I’ve been too scared to do any serious gym work this pregnancy so that hasn’t helped.
I’ve started back at body pump and aiming for 2 classes a week, one yoga class and another weights session. I’m also trying for big walks or bike rides every day, as much for Reuben’s sanity as mine!
I know it’s a bad idea to lose weight during pregnancy and that’s not my aim – my aim here is to be healthy and maintain my muscle as long as I can too – it helps with an easier delivery and recovery and not to mention boosts your metabolism. I’d also like to not be eating any extra than I need to right now and now that I’ve got the exercising and walking back under control that’s what I’m struggling with. I’ve always always for as long as I can remember been a binge eater, always in secret and people used to not believe me when I said that because I was always relatively slim. Now… I think people would believe me a bit more
So I’ll be making regular posts - I’d like to say daily but going on my past blogging history that’s just already a lie – on my diet, I have all the nutritional knowledge I need to make the healthy decisions just lacking the motivation and surely I can get that from holding myself accountable.
On this subject, nothing helps me more to make good food decisions than a good nights sleep! I’m off to sleep now, goodnight xx
I’m so happy to be sharing that we are expecting another baby! I’ve been really quiet on the blogging front recently – mainly due to the fact that my life has been somewhat all consumed with the dark cloud that is infertility. Every time I would go to write all I could drum up would be posts on miscarriage and how much of a depression I was struggling with and I decided I didn’t really feel I could quite express the way I was feeling appropriately, nor was I sure that I wanted my deepest thoughts and sadness out there for everyone to see forever.
I suppose because I’ve felt/been really infertile for over a year now that getting this far in the pregnancy feels just to good to be true. I also seem to be one of those lucky women who get absolutely no morning sickness or anything like that so there’s nothing to reassure me on a daily basis that there’s actually a baby inside of me. I have to admit to peeing on yet another pregnacy test as soon as we got back from France, so reassuring to see that mega dark test line appear in seconds!
Don’t get me wrong I’m beyond happy but the disbelief and nervousness that something will go wrong a bit does spoil the fun. I am totally relaxed about it and very good at not being stressed out
So that’s my news! All going well the baby will be born at my parents house in NZ. The “due date” is 27th of December, I’ll be happy if it decides to come not on Christmas day though! I still have to sort out my midwife care here in the UK as I’ve just been under the local early pregnancy unit due to my previous losses. I’ve already found a fab midwife and confirmed she can take me on for the birth in New Zealand and I can’t wait. I’m so looking forward to giving birth!